So I was bad last night, not too bad.  I went to bed at 11…okay 11:15pm.  But I read an email that got me fired up about the neighborhood association and all these ideas started flowing, my head was wired and I didn’t finally fall sleep until after midnight.  Tyler was up wanting covers I think.  Then Quinn was up at 3-something am wanting milk.  Well, no, we have milk when the sun comes up.  So after an hour she gave up and went to sleep.  Then Tyler was up, and wanted me to snuggle – I stayed around 15 minutes until he was back to sleep.  Then Quinn wanted some milk at 5am.   It was all really laughable.  I actually pondered waking for the day around 5:15am….thankfully, I fell fast asleep.   And then had some crazy dream…..regarding my hubby and another lass….and then they were on reality TV….s-t-r-a-n-g-e.

And so I should feel really tired, but I don’t, but I do want coffee.   So maybe I am getting there – that place I got to when Tyler was a night-waking babe – that place where you function pretty damn well on very little sleep.   Where I am strangely  calm and mellow – I kind of like it.

I am crabby, but don’t have the energy to lose my temper.  And since this is one of my greatest challenges, this state of being actually serves me quite well.  My mood is wobbly, but if I could just interject some yoga in the evenings, I think it would turn around.

I go between optimistic and weighted down and telling myself to suck it up because my life is so damn easy.  And really, it is easy and I know that.   So I take a deep breath and go out into the day being tired, but also thankful.   Resilience – it is what I always hope for in the challenging times, it is what I wish for everyone.  It is what gets you through.

With that, wish me luck.  This mama has to lead 5 other mamas on a hike at Turkey Creek.  Oh universe, this is my zen place – please let it be so today.  I want to share the beauty and peace of nature and hope that there aren’t too  many dogs or distractions to take away from that.  Off to prepare hiking snacks….