So today I drove to a friend’s house to drop off some food….took the Forester. Chris had The Killers CD in the car. Since the baby wasn’t in the car, I blasted the radio and drove like a maniac down Shoal Creek (it is a turbo engine after all). It was SOO fun! I felt like I was breaking some rules and letting loose…. It is like yes, I am becoming a mommy – but Alyssa is still there too. And every once in a while I have to get a little crazy and feel a little sexy, ya know?

Of couse, I get home to a frazzled Daddy to find that Tyler was screaming his head off the whole time. He is going through a growth spurt, so although he had nursed but an hour and a half before – he was hungry again. That really short-circuited my high.

Hung around with my very cosmopolitan sister in-law…actually both of my sister in-laws are very stylish. Made me want to find time to take care of myself so I don’t look so tired and frazzled myself all the time. Hard to feel sexy when ya think you look like crap.

Thankfully, my parents will be here lots over the next couple of weeks. I am hoping to start building more of a routine with Tyler and build in time to get a few little things done here and there.

This baby thing has such an affect on your marriage! No one writes books about how to work that out. Our perfect little dynamic has been turned on its ear. As I said, we were on auto-pilot, so it was time to stir the pot and we have. Slowly, things will rebalance and we will figure out how to have lives and a marriage while raising a child. I know people do this every day, but people also get divorced every day. Many a marraiges crumble when a baby arrives – we are working on it and just trying to be open and honest about how we feel…when we are frustrated and how we can work together as a team to help each other. If I could write halfway decent, I would love to do a book on keeping your marriage strong while surviving a baby. Unfortunately (or fortunately), I can’t write and have no medical training or any other schooling in that area….hmmm, that didn’t stop Dr. Phil now did it? (Is he REALLY a doctor?)