So one evening two weeks ago, I was working on a website I am building for Blossom Family Center. I figure I might as well give the new Coldplay a listen. I was immediately captivated. I don’t know if it was my recent mood or what but I immediately connected to the music. I usually don’t embrace a full album right away. Within a day I wanted the music on my iPod and by the next day I remember hearing they were coming for a concert.

Three days after I first heard the album, I told Chris, “I really want to hear this album live, I want to go see Coldplay.” Sure enough they were coming in November, but only to Dallas or Houston.” And you know what, we were fine with that!

Here is the weird thing - I am not a massive Coldplay fan. I like their music, but it isn’t like I would travel to go see them. But somehow this music sonically grabbed me - and if you have heard this album, well, it was built for an arena. You want to be completely drowned in it to fully experience it. Chris did get to see Colplay at ACL and really enjoyed their show. And he is quite the music snob, so to be blown away by a band says a lot. So I thought - what the hell? The kids will be old enough..why not have a couple excursion?

The Dallas tickets had already gone on sale, but we lucked out that the Houston ones were going on sale that weekend. Chris snagged us floor seats and so off to Houston we go. The full plan is to drive down, have dinner at one of our old haunts, see the concert, stay at a hotel overnight and head back the next morning…without the kids of course.

We are so excited and have been acting like giddy teenagers since the whole plan came together.  Too bad we have to wait until November!!  :-p I think it is what we needed. Sometimes we get so lost in parenting and our lives as they are now. It is nice to carve out places where we can connect to the people we left behind the day Tyler was born. It is nice to realize they are still there and as the kids age, we will have more opportunities to be those people from time to time. To shed the weight and responsibility for a little while…

John Mayer’s “Heavier Things”. If you have it, give it a listen. I LOVE THIS album. It is so cohesive and somehow is so fitting for times where you feel that you are wandering. Listening to him, I hear him searching for purpose just like me. It is a haunting and seductive listen if you ask me.

One of my favorite lines from, “Something’s Missing”:

“I can’t be sure that this state of mind is not of my own design”.

How many times are we just lost in the drama conjured up in our own heads??”

Another from “Bigger Than My Body”:

“Someday I’ll fly
Someday I’ll soar
Someday I’ll be so damn much more
Cause I’m bigger than my body gives me credit for.”

That song is my song. I sit here so many times feeling like I feel short. Wondering when, when will I find the right place where all my strengths and talents will be utilized. I love my job as a Mom and know that this is where I am meant to be in my life. But when I look to the future, I wonder, when will I be so damn much more? Surely, the universe has intentions to use me more. I mean I am sitting here blessed and aching to give back, to make a difference.

Anyway, the whole tone of this album resonates with me. My only fast forward songs are “Daughers” believe it or not. The lyrics are sweet, but the song itself just doesn’t resonate with me.