Well – I am back to work 15 hours/week. Everything worked out with the aforementioned situation by the way. I have been so busy that I barely find time to post. Tyler was up all day yesterday…Daddy has Tyler duty tonight as I needed some personal time.

So I am positive that I am NOT meant to be a stay at home Mom. Back at work, I am clicking right back into place. I really enjoy it. The modified schedule it great to. I get my work fix and am still home in time to have plenty of time with Tyler. I am not against staying at home by any means – just for me and my sanity – I need that social outlet.

Tyler is “waking up”
He is getting so aware and it is sooo fun!! He smiles, giggle and coos!! These are the things that make it sooo worth it. I love the noise he makes after a sneeze, his squeal of delight when he sees something he loves and his sighs. I just melt! He is really aware of his surrounds and will just examine everything around him. He absolutely loves celing fans – it is like one giant mobile to him I guess.

Tyler Pics
Chris has added some more black and white photos of tyler. You can click in Tyler’s album and click on “Mother & Baby” or use this shortcut. The new photos are after the last color photo.

Can’t Organize Chaos
I realize that I spend my life trying to organize chaos whereever I find it. It is so difficult to accept that at this stage of Tyler’s life – there can be no routine and no organization. For Tyler, not at this stage anyway. I have to be flexible and realize that some days the house will not get clean and x, y and z will not get done. Sounds easy enough, but it has been hard for me.

Where are the honest, open and supportive mommies?
I may sound like I am depressed about having a kid. I am not – I love being a mommy. I just wish more people would be honest and open about how hard it is and there are days where the baby is crying his eyes out and you have nothing left. You just want to hand him over and say “you fix this”. Additionally, Moms can suck. I had a friend who wore her 7-week old baby to a party (it was okay for the baby to be there). My friend was so excited about her sling. Some Mom within 10 minutes said “So what are you going to do when she is 5 years-old and can’t walk because you carry her all the time?” How nasty is that? If Piper can’t walk at 5 is it her problem anyway? What does she care? The baby at the time was only 7 weeks!!!

Yeah, among ourselves we may criticize various philosophies, but I wouldn’t tell some Mom to her face she was screwing up her kid. Especially one with a baby that young – hell, you can’t really do much wrong in the first 3 months (thank God!!)

I wish Moms would just be supportive. If you think someone is screwing up their kid, you can just be glad that it isn’t your kid and you won’t have to deal with whatever problem they are creating. I dunno…I just get frustrated with all the judging. Ya know, in the end we are all just trying to be good mommies.