Not really – but there are moments where the living is easy and I inhale those as deeply as I can. And if I can capture that image for myself, it really helps put this whole journey into perspective. I kept thinking that July would be a long month for us, but so far it seems to be zooming by. The kids are starting their school a month later than I thought, so we ended up with this extra time. I am going to try to blog fairly regularly this month to help me stay grounded in the good moments, the growth, and appreciating what a gift my children are.

Last week was a tough one for me in so many ways and was a kick in the pants of sorts. It got my creative juices flowing – ok, I want change, so what am I going to do? Take my anger and do something positive with it.

I mentioned before that I have been writhing to get out of my shell. I want to shed my skin. I want to be on a different road. I am ready to let go of some stuff, reclaim parts of me that have lain dormant, and finally get in touch with sides of me that only exist in daydreams. If I dream it, I can be it. I am tired of finding all the reasons why I can’t do something. Why is it that I can only be accomplished and great in my head?

I love working on the house and my projects here, but I love service and I need to get back to that. In the next few weeks I will share a few things I have cooked up and will be slowly rolling out. Some things may fizzle out and some things may take, but hey, I don’t know until I try and put myself out there.

Oh, and I know about me and plans..remember this? I guess it makes me seem flaky, but I think the universe simply steers me. I put my thoughts and questions out there and see what happens. As I have more experiences and encounter more people on this road, my path becomes clearer. At this point, I have decided against going back to school. I don’t think the path I mention in that earlier post is the right one for me. I love building organizations, I love structuring chaos, I love helping people, I love process, and in general I love building things. I need to stay true to who I am and I will find my calling.