Ya know - overall this has been a crappy week and I don’t know why. As I told Charles, just life I suppose - ups and downs and all. I have been tired and my brain has been scattered. I have had a hard time focusing at work. Dunno, Friday will be here soon and I will have the weekend to re-energize.

I guess the thing I feel the worst about is that Chris bears the brunt of my moods. He thinks I blog and say negative things about him, because when I am upset I say some not so nice things. What he doesn’t know is that by the time I get to my blog, I feel at fault and awful about the episode. In the end, I had a bad day and took it out on him….

Tyler uses up a lot of my patience, so on days when I am tired, I have less of that to go around. Dunno… I think the hardest part about having a child is that your time is so incredibly limited and your schedule is fairly unpredictable. You have to manage your life around that and it can be hard.

I have always held fairly unrealistic expectations for myself. Couple that with my fear of failure (see June 16th blog) and you see that I create a daily “no-win” situation for myself. Just another life lesson that Tyler will force me to learn and one that I have needed to learn for quite some time….. I don’t want my child to go through life beating himself up like I do. I need to model more healthy behaviours, ya know?

Anyway, need to get back to work. Thanks for listening…hope you enjoy the Tyler pics.. They always bring me a smile even on a not so great day..