From time to time you will see glimpses of her, buy she isn’t around as much as she used to be. She’s been replaced by someone who is tired and worn out, stressed and frustrated, and just trying to keep up with life. Or maybe that is just this week? I try to keep my chin up knowing that I have it so much easier that a lot of other people out there. Every second I should be thanking my lucky stars and having a better attitude.

It has just not been a good week for me. Tyler is ill and we have both lost sleep the last 5 days as a result. I am trying to get my work done, but make it in at 8:30am (not 8am) and then have all these interruptions. Today I had a dentist appt that ate up about 2 hours only to have to return next Monday for a filling. I would like to go in the afternoon after work, but what to do with Tyler? Sure, I could just leave him longer in daycare - we pay for it after all. But I feel like I have a deal with him - his Mommy will be there at 2:15 pm to be with him. He gets all the one-on-one attention he wants after that and in exchange I get to work. There is a lot of guilt when you work while a baby sits in daycare.

Sorry - my blog must be a real downer sometimes. Dunno - I guess that at least it portrays the realities of having a child. It is a constant balancing act. Some days I balance very well; other days I am an abysmal failure. I am trying to be the best wife, Mom, employee, and friend I can be all at once. Sometimes to be good at one, you have to be not so great at the others…